Wednesday, October 31, 2007

the time has come...

...before i let u go
i want to say..
i love you...

I have learned to be competitive,
I have learned to be confident,
I felt the need to prove myself,
to show to them all that I'm extraordinary,
that I am someone worthy to be proud of.
I know I deserve it, but things did not turn out as expected to be...
same with my other group mates.

If there are things that I should be thankful for
one of those are the moments that I have spent with my colleagues.
I 've known them for not so long
That was only for a short time, yet
those times we shared were extraordinarily beautiful.
But the time has come that our companionship would end
And God, how I miss them...
How I miss those times of laughter and friendly talks,
those times we feel we have to be together for a 'purpose'
yeah, those times...
Now, only the chosen few were given the chance
to continue their journey.
Unfortunately not all of us can join them,
unfortunately I'm not one of them.
And yet, this time has come that we'll find no justifiable reason
to gather, to be together...
The end has come. We have to part ways and go back to our
original lives..turn our back to the 'thing' that kept us busy
these last few days...the 'thing' that made us united...the 'thing'
that made us friends...

Well, we know that even this time has come, it wouldn't be
the reason we shouldn't be together
for we will remain as friends forever
I can feel it...But I know that things won't be the same as they were.

As for the friendship, I will remain to be..'boRdZ..forever.'
To you, guyz, thanks for the memories. I'm looking forward to the day when we'll be together again.

I've learned so many lessons...and finding these friends is the most unforgettable.
I just want to be grateful of the opportunity, anyway. For I have given the chance to express
myself, to be a part of the whole...

Monday, October 22, 2007

..jUsT a rEfLecTioN

...sometimes you just have to be hurt again
so you can be stronger..
...sometimes you just have to be torn into pieces
so you can be whole again..

whatever will be the result
I'll accept it, I promised to myself...
I just don't want to think so much about it
it'll just hurt me more.

I just need to focus to my other priorities
there are still a lot of reasons to live, anyway
I just have to admit that
it's not that easy, yeah...
But I must not spend so much time
just for this..
Well, maybe I just have to 'think things over' too,
but I must move on...

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Optimism toward Success in One’s Self

(This is my piece when we had our final exam-speech (public speaking) in our English subject.)

An old French proverb says, “Life is half spent before one knows what life is.” Do you agree? Especially of what comes into mind when we speak of living the purpose to achieve success in life.

Most often the standards for success are measured by the level of education we have attained, the amount of money we have in the bank, the size of our house, or how much material possessions we own. But I know all of us here are not those quite immature to think that the measure of success is not only limited to that. It is something more. It’s the feeling of satisfaction inside you, that somehow a certain hole and longing in your heart was filled and met.

But somewhere along the course of life, there are barriers which hinder us from taking big steps towards our goals in achieving our dreams to the way of success in life. These are our daily trials that take away from us the courage and cheerfulness to live life to the fullest.

Yes, many of us are old enough to think and to accept that that is all part of living. We may even have searched for the things that would make our world go round, people who would inspire us to do the least impossible. You may have begun finding the purpose why you’re here.

But there are times that even how hard you try your best is not enough. No matter how far you went for something you wanted, still the results of your sacrifice are not worth it. No matter how great your efforts are, still the outcomes are disappointing, still you fail.

And these failures are so hard for you to accept, so painful to feel, so agonizing to think over. That is why you avoid making mistakes, right? Because you don’t want regrets – you hate failures. And failures only push you to make one step backward to correct your faults, so you won’t have to suffer the ill consequences that would make life more difficult. So discouraging, isn’t it?

But the questions are: have you ever found the guts to stand up again, take another step, when you fall down? Have you tried your best once more, squeezed the most excellent part out of yourself, again? Have you took those hardships as challenges that would push you to go, get inspired, and work it out? Have you found the courage to try and the faith to believe in yourself after those great challenges had made its way upon you?

If not, then, you have not made a step to recover from your depressions.

Man, by nature, is weak – emotionally, I should say. It is but natural for us to feel miserable whenever hardships come along.

But I must tell you – you must not think that you have an excuse for being weak. Yes, you are but human. But bear in mind that you also have the ability of a real, brave man – one who is afraid yet willing to take any risk. You have the capability to see things on the brighter side – if you choose to be. You have the choice. And you must rather choose it. For if you will not, you are not helping yourself. You will not find the true meaning of success in life if you have not seen the real essence of success – of gaining victory over your own misery.

You must learn to stand again after you’ve fall down; to fight again after losing the battle; to reach out, and to think that there are still a hundred reasons to live; to turn your face toward the light, be optimistic, but with sense. You know your limitations. But God has given you a great mind to control your emotions, to convince your self, to overpower your fears, to make the impossible possible – if you want to, if you will just believe in yourself. And you will triumph over your weakness. You will be successful.

And so I leave you with this final thought. Don’t go home and think about it. You have a golden opportunity to change your life. Do it now.


Remain fresh and original

Saturday, October 6, 2007

hmm....feels guD to bE baCk!!


after 48 years...i've visited this blog again.. (-_-)