Monday, January 14, 2008

HeLLo wOrLd!! Welcome 2008!

Happy New Year! 2008...the year of the earth rat. Another year, a brand new time to change, a brand new chance for improvements.

Most of us are equipped with new year resolutions that we've planned to do in the coming year. And well, admit it or not, almost all of our resolutions in the past did not come out as what we had expected them to be, right? :-) Because mostly humans tend to forget what they had vowed to do or undo in the year more or less 7 days after new year celebration. Whew! Humans! (and I'm not denying that I'm not one of those who break their resolutions, huh?! haha)

But anyhow, we must then set goals for ourselves this new year. It would further help us make better persons if we would look forward to changes in our habits. Good or bad, there must be some real improvements. Experts say that in order to make those resolutions of ours be put into action and be effective, there must be some initial steps to be taken so to assure that these resolutions will be carried out.

But as I tried to reminisce the past, I could remember that I did have made some resolutions (just because it were needed as the teacher said so, and thus ending it never been put into practice). But I also noticed that the things I really wanted to change, have been achieved in the succeeding years even though I never remembered making a single step just to attain that goal. While those that I've been yearning to get, and what I've been putting into practice, didn't seem like having a possible outcome the way I had expected it to have. Funny, huh?

That is why, perhaps, I never vowed to make resolutions to myself every time a new year approaches. Aside from the fact that I was half-thinking that I have this sort of mindset that resolutions are just for children (which is wrong), I guess I learned a lesson from the above experiences of mine. I guess I just don't have to force myself or exert much effort just to get a 'mission impossible' possible, or those which are obviously much higher to aim. Just like what they say, 'You can't aim too high.' (But I tell you, you can if you will! Tsk, tsk...such opposing principles, right?) Well, I just feel that if it is meant to happen, it happens (just like what destiny suggests...?haha)

But hey, I'm not saying that we just depend on luck. I'm also one of those who believed mostly on applying self-discipline and determination to whatever you do so to attain even your most impossible dreams. Perseverance pays a lot.

What I'm really expressing here is, you just have to wait and see. Be patient. You just don't mind the changes that happen around you.


Well, I just hope that by this time, I would make a lot of my resolutions come true

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

the time has come...

...before i let u go
i want to say..
i love you...

I have learned to be competitive,
I have learned to be confident,
I felt the need to prove myself,
to show to them all that I'm extraordinary,
that I am someone worthy to be proud of.
I know I deserve it, but things did not turn out as expected to be...
same with my other group mates.

If there are things that I should be thankful for
one of those are the moments that I have spent with my colleagues.
I 've known them for not so long
That was only for a short time, yet
those times we shared were extraordinarily beautiful.
But the time has come that our companionship would end
And God, how I miss them...
How I miss those times of laughter and friendly talks,
those times we feel we have to be together for a 'purpose'
yeah, those times...
Now, only the chosen few were given the chance
to continue their journey.
Unfortunately not all of us can join them,
unfortunately I'm not one of them.
And yet, this time has come that we'll find no justifiable reason
to gather, to be together...
The end has come. We have to part ways and go back to our
original lives..turn our back to the 'thing' that kept us busy
these last few days...the 'thing' that made us united...the 'thing'
that made us friends...

Well, we know that even this time has come, it wouldn't be
the reason we shouldn't be together
for we will remain as friends forever
I can feel it...But I know that things won't be the same as they were.

As for the friendship, I will remain to be..'boRdZ..forever.'
To you, guyz, thanks for the memories. I'm looking forward to the day when we'll be together again.

I've learned so many lessons...and finding these friends is the most unforgettable.
I just want to be grateful of the opportunity, anyway. For I have given the chance to express
myself, to be a part of the whole...


Monday, October 22, 2007

..jUsT a rEfLecTioN

...sometimes you just have to be hurt again
so you can be stronger..
...sometimes you just have to be torn into pieces
so you can be whole again..

whatever will be the result
I'll accept it, I promised to myself...
I just don't want to think so much about it
it'll just hurt me more.

I just need to focus to my other priorities
there are still a lot of reasons to live, anyway
I just have to admit that
it's not that easy, yeah...
But I must not spend so much time
just for this..
Well, maybe I just have to 'think things over' too,
but I must move on...
..fast..